After their ballsy go for broke lay it all on the line before during and after the 36 hours of possible good weather ascent, as they are descending in the teeth of the storm, totally shattered physically, mentally and emotionally, they are hit by a massive avalanche. As Cory’s tears flowed with relief at being alive, fear and possible disgust at himself for risking it all while his new wife is at home alone, I was touched. This moment in COLD brought me back in time, back to 1998 to Mount Owen, where I was going for my own bit of glory, the first descent (ski or snowboard) of the North East Snowfields of Mount Owen. It was here that I was also taken by an avalanche. I am sure that I would have cried if I hadn’t to use all my energy for survival. I also would have used a cell phone if I had one. Or a SPOT satellite rescue beacon, but those things were not available to the masses in 1998. What I did experience while watching them stand from the avalanche was relief. Relief that they were alive. I also felt deep gratitude my life was not extinguished that day. And happiness at having found my spectacular wife who has bore me two beautiful sons.

Life goes on, especially after harrowing experiences. And with the super challenging experiences comes growth and renewal. My body has healed, my ambitions in the mountains have mellowed and now I am looking towards a bright future after serious struggle the past several years. In my envisioned future, I find new goals and the strength and determination to find a way to accomplish them. I owe it to myself and to my family to learn to thrive outside of the mountains. The way down below is much less obvious and wrought with (at least for me) severe challenges. But with boldness and humility I will succeed.

And Below is the trailer:

COLD – TRAILER from Forge Motion Pictures on Vimeo.

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I did make some turns along the north side of the ridge traversing to the glacier on my way to ride the Gervasutti Couloir on Mont Blanc du Tacul. The “Gervasutti,” as it is known, is situated between a bergschrund at 3465 meters and the summit ridge at 4200 meters and was first climbed in 1934 by the Italian Giusto Gervasutti and his companion Renato Chabod. The steepness of the couloir averages 45° and is 55° at its steepest.   The Gervasutti has seen a number of tragedies over the years, including that of my friend and occasional skiing and chess partner Hans Saari . Hans fell in the direct entrance to the couloir after losing his edge on ice. Check out the link above to know more about the Hans Saari Memorial Fund and the good work they are doing in Hans’ honor!

The Gervasutti was first skied by Sylvain Saudan on the 17th October 1968. Saudan is one of the great early pioneers of extreme skiing.

Here is a 1 minute video of  Tobias Granath skiing the Gervasutti. The video shows the steepness of the couloir nicely.

I opted to break the golden rule of climbing what you ski/ride on this instance, and paid a small price…others have not been as fortunate as I. The Gervasutti has towering seracs menacing the slopes below. To minimize the risk of getting wiped out from an ice avalanche if the ‘schrund calved, I walked up the back side instead of climbing directly up the couloir under the “hang fire,” before dropping in, as Hans had done. I slipped on ice towards the lower part of  the Couloir but was able to self arrest with my ice ax and eventually able to force an old, dull Russian titanium ice screw into the ice and clip into the screw with a daisy chain (leash) attached to my harness just as my gloved hand slipped out of my ice ax leash. Phew! A quick change to crampons for a short climb to the snow, and soon I was riding again. I jumped the 15′ bergschrund at the bottom of the couloir and, upon landing, popped out of both bindings! My binding screws were loose!

Let’s just say, after this and a couple other near misses, I was fortunate to make it out of Chamonix alive and with many learning experiences to learn from moving forward!

I like the short video below…of a Frenchman skiing four routes on the north face of the Aiguille du Midi above Chamonix.

Enjoy!

4 routes.2 friends.1 camera. from sébastien montaz-rosset on Vimeo.

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VIGILANCE
by Stephen Koch

Vigilance is alert watchfulness. And as a climber it is paramount to be vigilant, not only for my own safety, but for the safety of my partner. Through the act of belaying, or protecting a partner with the rope, is when I am most watchful. My partner calls out, “watch me” and my total focus returns (if not already there) to safeguarding their every move by constantly giving and sometimes taking in (when they climb down) rope. My mind wanders often while belaying. Belaying can be the most exciting thing ever and a moment or two later, the most tedious activity known to man, sometimes the activity of belaying can go on for hours on a challenging lead. Belaying is usually more exciting when I can observe my partner. This direct observation makes it easier for me to be encouraging and I regularly say with all my heart and hope and belief, “I’ve got you” or “I’m with you” or “You’ve got this!” or “You’re doing great!”

Belaying is a love hate thing for me. On the one hand I love being in a position to encourage and coax my partner up. On the other I have intense feelings of impatience, and become critical and think, no KNOW, how much faster things would go if I were on the sharp end, only to climb up and realize first hand the challenge my partner faced on lead. This mind dance could be credited with my success as a mountaineer, but can also be credited with my continued suffering. Would I benefit from less vigilance in the mountains? The bottom line with belaying is that you better be vigilant because your partner’s life literally depends on it. If they fall and you have too much rope out due to lack of vigilance, they may hit a ledge or the ground. There are numerous examples of this occurring throughout the climbing world and I would venture to say this is one of the leading causes of injuries in climbing.

Before a climb I vigilantly select the gear, taking the bare minimum to increase the chances of success. This might be contrary to some people’s thinking…why not take more, that way you will have it if you need it. Well the more you take, “just in case,” the more you carry. The more you carry the heavier you are. The heavier you are the slower you go. The slower you go the shorter distance you cover in a given amount of time. Classic example…if you take bivouac gear, you will use it. If you don’t take it, you won’t use it and probably won’t need it. You will climb faster as a result of being lighter and also being more committed. Are you willing to go there? The risks may be greater, but so are the rewards. It is also important to check the weather. An example of being vigilant and getting stung by going light on a long and difficult route at altitude, with Jimmy Chin, Kami Sherpa, Lapka Dorge Sherpa, I was climbing the North Face of Everest. We took only one two man tent, two sleeping pads, two stoves to melt snow and cook food, two days of food, a 100′ 7mm rope, a few nuts and titanium pitons, a few slings and carabiners and that was pretty much it…oh yea, and my snowboard. Had we brought more food we would have been in a better position to continue to 8,000 meters, with the summit attainable from there, two thousand feet above our current position on the massive face. BUT, we also would have been slower as a result of carrying more food. And we may all be dead if we had continued up. After retreating from about half way up the face we saw a fracture in the snow where an avalanche had ripped out, right above our high point.

Vigilance goes hand in hand with intensity for me and everything I love. While climbing I do EVERYTHING that I am capable of to move faster and be more efficient…

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…giving a courtesy hold on rappel, making a V-Thread while belaying my partner, eating, drinking, pissing, shedding layers, donning layers, organizing gear, stacking the ropes, giving a consistent and snug belay, giving encouragement to the second as well as the leader, shutting the fuck up when that “helpful” voice that loves to justify the criticisms with “it’s for your own good”, and other drivel; keeping my criticisms to myself, trying not to beat myself up for having the criticisms dance around my head, keeping the psych high and the true belief in our ultimate success paramount, until it becomes so, all play into the separatelessness of life, thought and climbing.

Am I soloing? Do I need to be completely secure? Can I survive a fall here? How important is speed here? What time is it? Do we have a headlamp? Extra batteries?  What phase is the moon today? Is it clear enough for us to be granted moonlight? What is the temp? Is ice likely to fall naturally from above?  Am I climbing below others who may not be as vigilant about knocking down ice? Even if they are, the ice still falls, always falls, no matter the completeness of the vigilance. That is one sketchy aspect of being in the natural, uncontrollable world of frozen water. Will I find safety from the threatening projectiles beyond shrugging my shoulders, trying to fit my entire body under my helmet?

Vigilant listening: Survival in the mountains often depends on listening. With avalanches, my earliest signs are usually auditory. Jet airplanes sound like avalanches, so I pay attention every time I hear something. And fortunately it is usually just a plane. I listen to the sound of the ice axe as it makes contact with the ice to determine my next move: whether to remove it and swing again for a more secure stick, or commit to ascend.  It’s a decision in the moment to “go” or “no go”, and in that moment I trust the sound more than the feel of the axe. So while I am vigilant about conditions around me that I can see and touch, I also pay utmost attention to what I hear.

Even when vigilant to the last detail, shit still hits the fan.  And once that happens, you take in all the data around you to get yourself through, and may it be with vigilance!

Light Traveler is marked on left with green line

Five. That is the number of times that I have stopped. Stopped during the coldest, darkest and most painful time on this journey. Stopped to kick the life back into my dying toes. It feels like I am lifetimes away from safety or flat ground. Here is the upper part of the Cassin Ridge on Denali’s southwest face. Here is merely the aftermath of climbing this new route, Light Traveler, with Marko Prezelj.

Marko Prezelj - Photo by Stephen Koch

Marko and I met in February 2001 in Scotland at the British Mountaineering Council’s semi-annual International Winter Climbers’ Meet, a convergence of climbers from many countries to climb and discuss topics of concern. I was there representing the United States and The American Alpine Club after better-known and stronger climbers had been unable to attend. Though Marko and I didn’t have the opportunity to climb together in Scotland, we shared a number of fine moments over libations at the local watering hole.

Once back in the States, email contact with Marko revealed that we both wanted to climb in Alaska, and that our approach, among other things, was similar. We both liked to climb alpine style and with minimal gear. We both understood that the lighter you go, the faster you go, and the faster you go, the further you go. Language was not a problem: Marko’s English is excellent. There was, however, a major difference between us: Marko’s greater alpine experience. Marko has been on the cutting edge of alpine climbing for over a decade. Among many other climbs, he had climbed a new route to the south summit of Kangchenjunga with Andrej Stremfelj in 1991, an ascent that won the inaugural Piolet d’Or award.

SK, at 19, during first snowboard descent of Grand Teton in 1989. Photo - Tom Turiano

I am better known as a snowboard mountaineer. If something is possible to descend on skis or a snowboard, it isn’t highly technical. Climbing with Marko, I would be able to see what I was capable of as an alpinist, on truly technical terrain, without the added weight of a snowboard.

Jack Tackle had given me the idea and encouragement for a new route on Denali. Jack is not only a huge inspiration but also a legend for his new and difficult routes in the Alaska Range. We work together for Exum Mountain Guides in Grand Teton National Park and I trusted his eye for new routes.

Jack and I poured over photographs of Denali’s many faces. The most logical unclimbed feature on Denali was to the left of the Cassin Ridge and right of the Denali Diamond. No one had been on the southwest face for over 18 years. There had been no new routes done on Denali in single push style. This was my chance to complete a great climb in the best style with a stellar partner. I was ready.

I picked up Marko and Klemen Mali, Marko’s Slovenian friend who was going to work in the States to make some cash and then climb in the Kitchatna Spires, in Anchorage on May 23. We spent the first few hours together in Alaska as we had our last few hours together in Scotland: drinking.

Marko and I flew into Base camp with Talkeetna Air Taxi on May 26. After finding a deserted campsite, we went to work setting up two of our tents. Ian Parnell and Kenton Cool, our neighbors at base camp, were approaching their climbs in a fashion similar to ours.

SK with plane. Photo - Marko Prezelj

Marko and I wanted to start by attempting a new route on the Mini Moonflower Buttress, a formation that had first been climbed by Parnell and Cool the week before.

MP below Mini-Moonflower Buttress. Photo - Stephen Koch

We skied across the glacier. Fist-size chunks of serac ice covered an area as big as a football field. I kept a weary eye on the hanging glaciers above as I pushed my anaerobic threshold to get through the area.

I gladly offered the first series of leads to Marko, who had more alpine experience in the world’s ranges. Saying that Marko looks comfortable in the mountain environment is an understatement. He eats up terrain and vertical like it is candy. After catching my breath at the top of the first pitch, I told Marko I would feel more comfortable if he put in a bit more gear (another piece!).

“I will,” he responded. “But more gear takes more time.”

I knew that might mean the difference between success and failure on these routes, but not having climbed with Marko until now, I didn’t have the complete trust needed to accept his decisions without question. This would soon change.

Following the rope snaking around the ice as fast as I could left me breathless at the belay. We were finding our rhythm without even knowing it. The change-overs went smoothly and speaking was not necessary. We would comment on the high quality of the climbing or the view, but that was about it. Eating and drinking was done while belaying: we both had Petzl Reversos, which allowed the lead climber to belay the second “hands free” (you can take your hand off the brake rope because it will automatically lock).

The climbing was mostly mixed with good rock and ice protection both. As the angle kicked back past vertical, I encountered rotten ice. There were no good feet. Every time I kicked, my cramponed boot would slide through an airy mess, leaving all my weight on my frighteningly pumped arms. I was scared I could fall. Fifteen feet below I had equalized a Screamer on two pins, but I was over lower-angled rock. If I fell, I would bounce off; though I would probably only break a leg, that could just as easily mean death up here.

MP on Luna. Photo - Stephen Koch

I was able to get a decent stick in better ice high above my head, but by now I was too pumped to use it, so I clipped into my teetering tool. As quickly as possible, I punched my fist through the airy-mass and slung all of the icicles I could, then added another Screamer to this, clipped it and gently weighted the contraption with my cramponed foot. This allowed me to reach up high with my left tool for a solid stick.

Now I was on better ice and able to stem out onto the rock with one foot. Pulling the bulge felt great, and relief and gratitude washed over me. The anchor that I set up was good. Marko pulled up beside me. We were on our own and loving it. There was no sign of anyone having ever been here before.

It was still my lead. I sorted the gear and unclipped. Just as I started climbing I heard something from above. A huge mushroom the size of a small car was smashing the cliff above us, breaking into smaller pieces as it fell. It hit us just as I dove on Marko and the belay.

SK on Mini-Moonflower with Foraker behind. Photo - Marko Prezelj

When it had passed, we decided to continue. I flitted from one
protected spot to another. We tried simulclimbing, but it didn’t work well because the necessary gear was difficult to get.

Several more pitches of fun, difficult, mixed climbing and deep snow (including a tunneling section that Marko burrowed through) brought us to the summit ridge. It was double-corniced and nasty. Happy with our achievement, we rappelled directly down the face, reaching camp after 23 hours on the go.

This climb, which we named “Luna” after the moon and inspired by Lemon Luna bars, gave us the bond of trust needed to do hard routes in the mountains. Our confidence grew. A few days of rest while watching Ian and Kenton attempt the Moonflower Buttress route on the north buttress of Mount Hunter got us psyched for a go. The Moonflower entails difficult ice climbing along with a couple of A3 rock pitches on a huge alpine granite and ice-covered wall. Sharpening crampons and axes and adjusting the rack had us anxiously ready in the evening.

Kenton Cool and Ian Parnell getting friendly. Photo - Stephen Koch

The Alaskan summer light is a key factor to climbing technical
terrain without stopping. One can climb continuously throughout the night on technical terrain without the need for headlamps. On the Moonflower, we would take bivuac sacks and a stove to melt snow for water. We started climbing at 7 p.m.

Moonflower (right) and Mini-Moonflower Buttresses on Mount Hunter. Photo - Marko Prezelj

MP freeing the Prow pitch on the Moonflower Buttress. Photo - Stephen Koch

After several great ice pitches, a mixed pitch brought us to the base of the Prow, one of the two pitches of aid climbing on the route. It was Marko’s lead and he quickly climbed up using his picks in the thin crack. When he arrived at the belay where it is normal to lower off and pendulum, he clipped in one rope for protection, downclimbed and delicately traversed from one ice patch to another without falling.

This was the only pitch on which we hauled a pack; on all the
others, the lead climber carried his pack. We did not bring jumars or
aiders. We were going climbing without any extra gear.

With one of the main technical pitches done, it was time to
continue up as fast as possible. The second would literally run up the ice, doing anything to move fast and save time. The beauty of leading in blocks is that the leader is rested and ready to lead again after the second gets up and the gear is sorted. Our rhythm was ‘on’ and we kept moving up the massive ice and granite wall with, to apply a Twightism, a surgeon¹s brutal efficiency.

Mascioli’s Mushroom, as it has been called since the death of Steve Mascioli in 1999, was a danger that we were wary of, but we were able to avoid it by climbing mixed terrain to the left of the normal line. This brought us to the ‘Shaft,’ two pitches of vertical and overhanging ice that is the ice crux of the route. It was my lead and I was psyched. A stuck rope frozen into the ice offered nice (albeit questionable) protection as I clipped sections of it with a quick draw.

SK in the goodness on Moonflower. Photo - Marko Prezelj

A few more pitches brought us to the next crux: the Vision, an aid pitch originally climbed with a pendulum. I got a small cam and piton in to safeguard my passage and then went for it. My feet were skating off tiny granite nubbins, but I hung on despite the weight of my pack and managed to reach the ice with a great yell of joy. We had done it! We had freed the aid sections of the Moonflower, the route that Mugs Stump pioneered and that had been called “The Nose route of the Alpine World.” Now all we had to do was get to the top of the Buttress, but first we needed to get to the third icefield to melt snow for water and hydrate.

We had been on the go for 16 hours with only five liters of water between us. We knew there was a good-sized ledge that Doug Chabot and Bruce Miller had chopped into the third icefield. Marko and I decided to push on to there rather than stopping at a less comfortable spot on the second icefield.

After arriving at the third icefield, we started chopping out a hollow spot to set the stove. It took quite a lot of time and work; the wind was howling, and spindrift snow crept into every nook and cranny imaginable. I tried to light the stove. Nothing. Here we were, 20-odd pitches up the Moonflower Buttress with no sleeping bags and a stove that was spitting gas out the pump. My mental energy drained with the blood in my fingers as I tried to fix the stove. No luck.

SK on third icefield on Moonflower. Photo - Marko Prezelj

We discussed our options: go up or go down. We would be descending the route anyway, so it made sense to continue as high as possible without water.

We ate everything we could stomach and as much snow as our mouths could melt. I noticed a metallic taste in my frozen mouth and spit blood; I had been chewing my cheeks and tongue.

We pared our gear down to the absolute minimum and took off. We were climbing in the sun with a sense of urgency we hadn’t had before. A traversing pitch brought us to the exit pitches. From there, we slogged up the upper snowfield, arriving at the Cornice Bivy, tired but happy, after 25 hours of climbing.

We had a pow-wow and decided that going to the summit would be too great of a risk. We were already pushing it by going without water for so long. We had to get off the mountain.

Eleven hours of rappelling brought us to bottom of the face. Though we had not made it to the summit, as had been our plan, we were still elated at our achievement and skied into camp just as everyone was getting up. Ian and Kenton prepared pancakes, an exchange that would become a regularity between us.

We were really tired and needed several days of rest. Had our expedition ended there, we would have been thrilled. Two good routes in the Alaska Range is a really good season, but a new route and freeing the Moonflower would have been superb. Our confidence soared.

Ian and Kenton set off up Denali to try a new route on the Father and Son’s Wall. Steve House and Rolando Garriboti were waiting for weather to try a single-push repeat of Foraker’s Infinite Spur. Having people around climbing in a similar style was really inspiring. It felt like family. We were taking greater risks because climbing in the best style mattered. We were climbing on the shoulders of the great pioneers of the Range: Stump, Tackle, Cassin, Haston, Scott…

In order to acclimatize better, we planned to climb to the top of Denali. Slogging up to 14 was the most unpleasant part of this journey so far. I don’t like carrying or dragging much weight, but it was necessary if we wanted to spend much time up high on the mountain. Marko was ahead of me while we were going to 17. He got there and passed me on his descent as I was still going up. At 17 I met my friend Forrest McCarthy who invited me in for dinner with his clients. After dinner he offered me a place to sleep which I gladly accepted. The following day I hiked to Denali Pass and climbed the South Ridge up to the plateau, finding what appeared to be Korean pitons along the way. The following evening from 14, Marko left at 3 a.m., reached the summit, and got back at 10 a.m. He was not going for a speed record, but might have beaten it. He climbed the entire way in his down pants.

“I was farting the whole way,” he said later, “and was happy to have the company.” When he took off the down pants the ‘company’ was still around.

The weather was continuing to hold. A four-day storm was forcasted but nothing happened. Every day was sunny. We rested, ate well and caught up with friends over many chess matches and big meals.

Finally it was time to go. Our plan was simple. We wanted to leave 14 camp, climb up the rib to 15,500 feet, descend the Wickwire route to the base of the southwest face and climb a new route up the face to the top of the wall where it meets the upper Cassin Ridge. From there, we would continue to the summit. We left at 7 a.m., taking basically the same rack we had on the Moonflower Buttress but with a second pump and a bit more fuel. We had one 60-meter 9.6 mm rope with a 50-meter 5.5 mm haul line that could be used to rappel if necessary.

Getting through the lower Wickwire was both tricky and a bit
dangerous. Two scary crevasse crossings, some downclimbing below seracs, a rappel over the bergschrund and a sprint under the big southwest face serac brought us to the base of the wall five hours after leaving 14. We kept climbing, with Marko leading over the bergschrund. We simulclimbed for about 6 or 7 hundred feet to the bottom of our chosen line.

Below the challenges of Light Traveler.

The granite was of the highest quality I had seen anywhere. As we got ready to start, my stomach was acting up, so I relieved myself, but the cramps wouldn’t go away. This is what happens when someone is really scared, I thought‹but I didn’t feel scared. I felt excited. I would not have wanted to be anywhere else on this planet at that moment. That would change.

With my stomach feeling like it did and the route looking as steep as it did, I kindly offered the sharp end to Marko, who readily accepted. The route went straight up into a chimney that stopped and then to a left-facing corner with a huge roof. The wall looked smooth for the feet, and there wasn’t much ice, either.

Marko on the crux pitch of Light Traveler on Denali. Photo - Stephen Koch

Watching Marko on this first pitch didn’t help my stomach any. He skillfully worked his way up to and around the big corner. Once around, he let out a joyous and relief-filled scream. Marko later said this was the “hardest free pitch he had led in the mountains.” He hauled the pack and I followed. I wished we had hauled my pack, too, for that pitch took more out of me than the diarrhea had. Can you say flash pump?

Marko led another two difficult pitches. There was a drip of water at one of these belays with which I wanted to fill our bottles, but the need to dodge careening ice chunks from high above made it difficult. The drip was good enough to drink from if I pressed my lips to the wall, but every time I tried I got a mouthful of silt and tiny rocks. I filled a couple of bottles so things could settle out before it was time for me to climb.

Marko handed me the rack and off I went. After about 30 seconds of climbing it was time to drop my pants again. My stomach was still not right. I hadn’t shat myself in the mountains, much, and now was no time for that with well over 7,000 feet of climbing and a descent to go before any real cleansing would be possible. Fear was not part of my makeup at this point and I was frustrated with my bad stomach and loose bowels. The only thing to do was to climb.

SK on the Shower Pitch, Light Traveler, Denali. Photo - Marko Prezelj

Light was still shining as I led. My second pitch was the “Shower” pitch. It started out innocently enough, a fine-looking vertical column with a blob of ice and snow at the top and roofs. Soon, however, I was forced to move left into vertical terrain with thin cracks. My pack was weighing me down. I hung it on a piece of gear and continued into the wetness. What started out as a drip that I thought could be avoided turned into a constant unwanted and potentially dangerous companion. My shell was in the pack, along with my belay jacket and balaclava. I was climbing in a Schoeller top that was getting soaked. By the time I made the belay my jacket was icy Armor, not good with the sun setting and the pack not hauling well.

The pack kept getting stuck during hauling which meant that Marko had to manually help it. Marko was furious when he arrived, yelling, “Stephen, this was shit.” I was taken aback and hurt because it had been a difficult and serious lead and I was wet and cold and yelled back, “Stephen not stupid” and “Good Job Stephen!” with, according to Marko, a cynical smile that made him realize he would have said the same thing if he were in my position. He immediately got where I was coming from and all was good again. I told him I hadn’t hauled many packs and apologized. The temperature dropped in the Alaskan twilight but we were able to ward off the cold with movement.

We were moving so well on these pitches that neither of us put on our belay jacket. We ate and drank while belaying so as to not slow our upward progress. Climbing in blocks of three pitches each was working well and we were both getting good difficult leads.

After the first several pitches the difficulties eased in angle, but still there was not an easy pitch. Pitch after pitch, the climbing continued. Working our way up this endless wall into the unknown was thrilling.

We had been climbing through the night and now looked for a place to brew up. Our water was gone and we needed to hydrate. If we slowed down much due to dehydration, we would not have been able to get off the wall. Problematically, we weren’t finding any places to brew. We weren’t going to stop and chop a ledge. It was cold now, and stopping would mean no movement. No movement means getting cold to the core. The belay jackets wouldn’t be enough, so we just didn’t stop. It wasn’t really discussed. Thirsty? Check. Tired? Check. Hallucinating? Not yet. Still enjoying the climbing? Check.

Marko was leading again. I really wanted to stop and brew. I was so thirsty and didn’t want a repeat of the Moonflower dehydration session. Still, there was no good place to brew. We were looking for any flat rock or place to hold the stove. We didn’t want to stand and watch the water boil. If we were going to brew, we wanted to at least be sitting.
The stone wasn’t lacking much, even in the darkest twilight of the Alaskan night. The rock was made for drytooling. My warm feet were making me happy. Cold toes had always been a problem for me. Before this trip I put thermo-flex liners in my plastic shells. This combination along with overboots had me smiling with joy, the joy of knowing that on many other occasions I would be swinging my feet to force warm blood into the drained toes. Not now. Everything on this expedition was going perfectly, from the landing on the airstrip to our freeclimbing the Moonflower to now warm feet. The energy needed to swing a big leg like mine would be needed for breaking trail up higher.

I put my shell on and followed Marko up the first of two triangular icefields. After traversing leftward, we climbed together on easy terrain until Marko could find a belay. The rock quality deteriorated for several hundred feet, and I knocked off several rocks that narrowly missing Marko.

The pitches seemed endless and all we wanted to do was to find a place to brew up. We were going on 27 hours of straight climbing with our original five liters plus a couple of additional bottles from the drip. Not enough to keep properly hydrated,but even double that wouldn’t be enough to keep hydrated with the energy we were expending at this altitude.

I led up snow-covered rock for 200 feet, where the angle eased. I wasn’t going to stop until I found a place to rest and brew. Big boulders were sticking out of the snow, but they were all downsloping. Finally I decided to head for the biggest one I could see with the hope that it would meet our needs. It did. I climbed around to the top and sat down, bringing up the rope for Marko hand over hand (there was no place to belay).

We each kicked out a place to sit, Marko below and me above with the stove. The first thing we made with our precious water was tea, black tea that neither of us wanted. We desperately needed to drink, but we had brought black tea instead of herbal tea. It was triple strong and we dumped it out. Hydrating is the number one thing we needed to do, and we had just dumped out drinkable liquids. Sometimes you just don’t argue with yourself.

We were in the sun with zero wind. Sitting on our packs, we enjoyed our spectacular position on this magnificent mountain. I thought about the other climbs done on this massive wall. The Denali Diamond, the Roberts-McCartney, the Cassin Ridge and Mugs’ solo of that route. These climbs and climbers set the path for us to follow. We were taking things a step further with the first new route done in single-push style. Below us we viewed the valley of death, waiting to see the inevitable serac avalanches sweep across. I kept melting snow, filling bottles. We drank. Finally, we ate: potatoes, garlic, sharp cheddar and tuna; two Ramen, six soups, many GU and candy bars, two hot chocolates, two coffees for Marko, GU-2-0 drink supplement with electrolytes, bagels and cream cheese. Yummy in the tummy!

I would nod off for moments here and there, but neither of us were in a comfortable or safe enough possition to sleep. I wasn’t thinking about much more than trying to keep the pot from spilling over in the soft snow.

Our fuel was down to about a third of a bottle. We would get one more brew stop. We were enjoying the warm sun, which filled us with energy and warmth, but now it was time to go.

On our way again at about 4 p.m., we realized the sun had softened the snow. Our crampons were balling up terribly. Every step up required a blow to the crampons with the axe.

We were roped together and swapping leads. After a few hours, we got back into technical climbing. Marko led off on another beautiful mixed pitch. The Cassin Ridge was over to our right and the upper southwest face was to our left. Fatigue was setting into my head rather than my body. I was mentally tired, tired of belaying, tired of climbing and ready to be done.

SK literally hissing at the camera - dealing with fatigue and frustration. Photo - Stephen Koch

I pulled out the stove, only to discover there was no fuel. It had all leaked out of the bottle due to the increased pressure from our rapid ascent. I hadn’t let the pressure out after our earlier cooking session. Again we were nearly out of water and getting dehydrated.

The Alaskan night was upon us and we had to climb the Upper Cassin on our own, as we had done on the entire route. We were not climbing on the backs of others who climbed days, weeks or years before. We had no ledges chopped, steps kicked in the deep snow or topo in hand. It was Marko and me, alone. There wasn’t a third person to help break trail, talk with on belay, split the load with or to snatch a nap while belaying. There was no napping while belaying for us. We had dove into the exciting unknown of a new route. Commitment was complete. If something went wrong, we had only ourselves to save us. Our margin of safety was small, but we would have had it no other way.

We did not use any of our eight pitons. We had no jumars. We were going to climb the route, not jug. We hauled the pack only on three pitches.

MP at the top of new ground on Light Traveler. Photo - Stephen Koch

Several more moderate mixed pitches and we were at the top of our route, where it meets with the upper Cassin. We left our ten-pound rope right at the top of the last pitch. Didn’t even coil it, just belayed Marko up and untied. I didn’t have enough emotional energy to feel bad about it.

High on Denali with a long way to go to the top. Mount hunter in light. Photo - Marko Prezelj

We had to keep it together. No water again. Low light, breaking trail. We were on our own and feeling like the mountain was ours. We only had to get off it to feel good about it.

Marko got ahead while I stopped to swing my feet. My toes were cold. It would have been easy just to climb, not heeding the cold toes. But I knew better. That would have been lazy and we had done too much great climbing to get sloppy or lazy. It would have tainted the ascent to get frostbite.

We were “climbing” with our belay jackets and balaclavas now. There were no places to stop and rest and even if there had been we wouldn’t have been able to use them. It was too cold to stop for more than a few minutes.

The light got low and all turned into a blue-gray haze, both inside my head and out. My peripheral vision was going, as was my ability to judge near distance. A couple of times I had to catch myself with my spike as I fell forward. If we had listened to our bodies, we would have fallen asleep every time we stopped, and then died from the fall.

After swinging my feet warm, I would begin hiking again, only to slowly have my toes get cold after an hour or so. The swinging was taking valuable energy away from me, but I would have to have enough. I have kept my feet warm in many cold situations; this would be no different. It seemed like forever had come and gone.

Marko waited and again we were together. He would lead, breaking trail for a while, then it would be my turn. No words needed to be spoken. We were saving our energy for upward movement. The thought of not being able to finish didn’t creep into my head. I was suffering like never before: mentally and physically shattered, just wanting to get off this mountain. It was relentless and neverending; the snow would go from neve for a few moments to breakable knee-deep the next. We didn’t want to have to think any longer. Just get us off this face.

Finally, slowly, we worked our way up the Cassin to the summit ridge. Sunshine! Flat ground! Marko was sitting on his pack. I dropped my pack, sat down with a sigh of relief and was startled as Marko knocked me over with a huge bearhug. We had done it. Our new route was nearly complete. All that remained was a 15-minute walk to the summit.

After 48 Hours - Happy and tired, very tired. Photo - Marko Prezelj

We were wobbly on the flat ground for the first few steps. On top, we snapped a few quick photos and then were off. Forty-three hours of climbing, 48 including the “approach.” It took us three hours to get back to 14 where we were treated to egg burritos and liquids from friends.

We were back. From where? A new route? Or an experience that Marko and I alone hold inside us? I have tried to explain certain aspects of the climb to people, but to go deep, I am not yet ready or able. Marko and I know what went on, and that is good enough for me. Now you know a bit about our adventure.